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MY THOUGHTS & OTHER MUSINGS

Waiting...

God has been doing some pretty amazing things in my life in the last few weeks. I'm not going to share any news yet because I am still waiting for the answer. No I'm not pregnant before anyone asks! But I still think this is pretty amazing so far this journey that God has decided to take me on as of late. There are still parts of this journey I would'nt have asked for but God has been holding me every step of the way. The people that do know no posting about it!!!! PLEASE!!!!! In 2-3 weeks I should know something. I'm trying to stay calm as I wait but those who know mw know that waiting is NOT my strong point. You would think I would be awesome at it by now but I'm not. Please pray for me in the waiting thanks

As I sit in deep contemplation the sun is streaming in and the praise music is flowing in the background cutting through the atmosphere of tension here today my grandmom isnt in the best of moods which I so understand because we have been through a lot this year but it's still hard to be around I need a vacation bad or Biscuit back so we can cuddle.

I promise not all my posts for returning and other topics will be negative but there is a lot going on right now and I just have to sort through it all and sometimes resort things 2 or 3 more times. Returning to the insanity of the same feelings and thoughts over and over and over and over regarding being in this wheelchair. The same questions and fears over take me. Over time the fears grow and get deeper. I may come back to this because I dont have too much time right now

Returning…
To the past just for a little while as I figure out where my chains began…as I weed throughthe broken pieces and see how God has started putting them back together…I realize some pieces don’t fit where I thought they did. Or maybe they no longer fitinto that particular space because of pruning and growth.
The depth of the pain that I have with some parts still amaze me after 20+ years. I get tired of hurting over the same things. I try and have another thought knowing things are different now but even though some things are different underneath it’s still the same.

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- Name: Heather
- Birthday: 4/14/1981
- Gender: Female
- Member Since: 3/11/2003
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